Scary Selfies

I took these wearing black lace over my face and then just added different filters to them. I think they are so freaky looking!






Left Brain vs. Right Brain: Let’s Get Ready to RUMMBBLLEE!

Left vs. Right Brain

Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost

Are you left brained or right? Well if you don’t know find out HERE. For me, I use both sides of my brain equally. I googled left or right brained tests and every one I finishes said that I use both sides equally, which surprised me because I KNOW I’m not left brained, but I’m also not that right brained either…

The brain is a deep place. Enjoy the test, the photos, and YOUR BRAIN!!




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Quote for Tattoo Poll

I’m getting a new tattoo on my arm and need help picking out the quote. Please vote on my faves or suggest your own. Thanks!

Sunshine and Rain

I bleed sunshine and rain.

It’s everything I want and it’s everything I don’t want.

I bounce back and forth between highs and lows and spend a bit of time in the middle.

The highs are my friend. I get to be an angel, a princess, a beauty, a precious flower. I dance, I sing, I create. The sun shines just for me. Time stands still for me. Love and beauty are all around just for me. Everyone is drawn to me. I’m fabulous and funny and wonderful! I can spend days alone and have the time of my life because I enjoy my own company so much.

The lows are not my friend. I’m a demon, a beast, a whore, filthy, nasty, trash. I hurt, I cry, the world hates me, I hate me. I am ugly. There is no love here. I want to soak my brain with alcohol and sleep until the sunshine comes back. I hate this part of my bleeding brain. Why can’t the sunshine stay all the time?

I found a quote by Dr. Victor Frankl that does help me to endure the pain “What is to give light, must endure burning”. I hope that this gives comfort to others that suffer from mental illness as well. I do truly believe that we endure our suffering for a higher purpose. It’s up to each of us to figure out what that might be.

Without the Darkness, I Wouldn’t See the Light

I found that quote yesterday and I can totally relate to it. I am bipolar and I am coming out of a bit of a depression. That is the reason that I haven’t posted anything on my blog for a little while. I feel like a million bucks the last couple days. Today I walked to the store and I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. I felt like the sun was shining just for me. I could see beauty in things that would have made me sad or angry just a week ago.

Being bipolar is a blessing and a curse. When I’m good; I am so good. I feel energetic, beautiful, smart, funny, creative etc. I dance, sing, smile, make up songs and rhymes and just have a good time. I can spend a entire day alone and have the time of my life. But what goes up must eventually come down. Luckily my personality type is naturally more outgoing and energetic so I don’t get down too often. My medications also really help so that I don’t get full blown manic or severely depressed.

I haven’t shared much about my mental illness on here yet, but I am going to start writing more posts about it. So stay tuned! If you suffer as well I would love to hear about your experiences in the comments!